maria hilf

door with heart, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012

its johanna's birthday and we celebrate. or she and we help her.  or we try to.

johanna is a friend, from munich, from a long time, still now, even so we were together on a road trip and saw probably not the  best sides from each other.

how can you, on a trip 24/7. and i love that, cause that makes friends to friends. shouting, screaming, crying and laughing. awesome. she is one of them.

today she has birthday.

room, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012

johanna, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012

on of friends came, surprise surprsie from austria. she is crazy but she loves it.

apparently she did it already in the past. wanted to visit johannna but johanna was not in her place. guess one of the maybe negative things about surprise visits.

i hate them. i hate already phone calls. surprise visits would totally stretch my living tollerance. cannot even say more. i think i would kill myself. unless it is on my birthday.

on birthdays it would be allowed. i think.

anna, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012

birthday preparation: one thing why i do not have any birthday parties. you need a good oranization, lot of money and a good location. oh and good people.

in my parent's place aweseom cause above all three fullfilled. we have a restaurant. so you see perfect.

oh and parties were awesome cause of above.

maria hilf, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012

one issue today: the three people, who were responsible for food got sick. thats the only issue.

johanna did not like it. but me and her friends. we dreamed from sausage on sticks and mozarella with pretzles in all kind of sizes.

cooking, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012

i hate parties which are about me. i hate birthdays. because it is about me. too much pressure. what if people do not like it? do not turn up? are bored? hatting the location, food, drinks? or just do not come?

one time on my 18th i got bad bad exma, all over my face. with 21 i lost my voice.

since 2005 i refuse to celebrate and ideally run away.
2005: living in germany and going for an interview in London
2006: living in the uk and going to germany for a shoot
2007: living in germany and not sure what i did but i am sure nothing
2008: living in the uk and going to germany for project meeting
2009: living in germany and spending my day lonely in the outdoorswimming pool
2010: living in the uk and working 12 hours and going to a leaving party
2011: living in us and preparing for a shoot plus working in the evening ( and missing a cake made by a classmate)
2012: living in india and sitting in a train for 24 h without internet and phoneconnection ( was the best one)

birthday cake, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012

when is a party successfull: people great, location great, food and drinks great.

when is a party unsuccessfull: depends

celebration1, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012

celebration2, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012

celebration3, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012

johanna's birthday party was great. i think. from everything a bit but not too much.

lights, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012

plate, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012

nice talkative people, individuals, open, easy going. no peering. funny and not pretentious. not too drunk and not too loud.

god i am getting really old.

heart, johanna's apartment. munich, 9th june 2012